Tuesday, April 14, 2009 @ 2:49 AM

SO MANY THINGS

I know I have not been updating..
I feel guilty about it..
I was thinking its time to re-think..
of situations..

So many things that I would like to update..
So many things that I've been bottling..
I just wished that problems could just be solved by closing my eyes..
I know that it was just a wishful thots of mine..

Who could have imagine things would turn out this way..
Who would have imagine that good things never last..
Who would have thought that I can never run or hide myself away..
I wish and keep on wishing that one fine day it would go away..

I am not sure of myself when comes to certain things..
I just want all bad things to end..
Please go away...
Just let me have a peaceful moments..

I really want to get away..
Away from all these situations that kept me felt so bad..
I want to move away..
All the stress and the painful situations that made me hate myself..
because why...
Because I couldn't do anything about it..
I can only smile and pray that things would turn better..

Right now..
I'll just get back to work..
I know its like running away from the reality of life..
but I guess... at the end of the day..
I would not have to think so much of it..

Why am I even posting all of unhappiness..
I guess its just a way for me to let go of things..
Why am I even think that no one reads my post..
I know someone would read it..
At least I know someone would..
If its you (anyone I know) read this post..
I dun want sympathy..
I just want you to know that..
Life is full of UPS and DOWNS..
Right now.. I'm in the midst..

So enjoy all the smallest happy memories you have with your love ones..
Coz.. one fine day.. that smallest happy moments..
will bring a smile to your face..

I'll talk more about my trip to Hong Kong soon..
Right now.. I need to rest my brain..
and just hope it would be okay for the next day...

Oyasumi nasai...