Saturday, February 7, 2009 @ 4:01 AM

Circumstances??

There are so many things in my mind right now..
There are things I wish I could just shout out to the world..
There are things which I hope I could change..

I know that things happen for a reason..
NO!!! WAIT...
Things happen for SO MANY REASONS..
I don't know which is which..
I don't know for what reasons or for what shit things happen..

Life..
How hard can it be??
Its us HUMANS that make things hard..
Selfishness, the alter ego, the stubbornness..
Argh...

I looked around..
Yet again...
I realise things are not the same anymore..
Am I suppose to be happy with the current situation..
Am I suppose to run away from it because it is not me who is going through them??
Right now.. I'm just giving my best support..
No matter what..
They are part of my life..

As much as I love my life..
I love them..
and I wish things would change for the better..

I really am taking a break after this..
I just need a breather..
After I'm done with school and exams..
I am going to work for the next whole month..
Then I'm going off..

I think I would be celebrating my '30' Birthday away from home..
Its time to do reflection again..
To think of what I want to do in future..
Its soul searching.. Bring myself to be stronger than before..
and I know I could do it.
I believe that no matter what..
I am strong enough to go through anything in the world..

I have always believe in myself..
I know that God would always be by my side..
Giving me the strength that I've always wanted..

Exams...
Its just next week..
I am preparing for it right now..
and I hope I could just go through it smoothly..

I feel lightened now..

Oyasumi nasai..